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Who I Am


Who I Am
By Pete Townshend
Harper Collins – £20.00

‘’Historically, The Who’s stage act had revolved around a kind of childish look-at-me competitiveness that had worked well from 1964 to 1968, as the four of us, boys still, tried to get the attention of the audience in our own eccentric way. I jumped around, posed like a Mod fop, squiggled sideways, swung my arm and battled my Marshall stack. Roger swung his long golden hair and twirled tassels on his shawl or his chamois leather jacket, as he sang and produced white noise or explosions by pushing his microphone against Keith’s cymbals. Keith played too many notes and made too many faces, throwing too many sticks and falling off his stool too often, but never lost the beat. John got attention simply because he stood so still, his fingers flying like a stenographer’s, the notes a machine-gun chatter.’’

So bequeaths Pete Townshend in Chapter Twelve (‘Tommy: The Myths, The Music, The Mud’) of this outstandingly compelling and beguiling book, Who I Am. A musically idiosyncratic insight, that in and of itself, many a fan of the semi-solipsistic songsmith, may – one way or another – have surmised for themselves many moons ago. To read The Who’s prime, powerhouse protagonist and fundamental, literary beating-heart; writing and admitting as such, is not only sonorous in the extreme, but also regal and revelatory.

Perhaps poignant is the word I’m looking for?

We are after all talking about Pete Townshend, who, along with John Lennon, has always machine-gunned straight from the nigh sacrosanct hip of socially iconographic honesty. A sometimes-fraught yet more than commendable and valuable if not pristine facet, which in this day and rather unfortunate age of Simon Cowell’s pre-ordained, uber wank fodder of cancerous, ideological persuasion, has become almost extinct.

Indeed, an all-circumnavigating facet, which, if not extinct, then increasingly impossible to find. This then, is just one of the reasons (and there are many) that accounts for this book being something of a refreshing reminder that a very substantial semblance of the musical truth, did actually once exist.

For if there’s one thing that Pete Townshend has executed exceedingly well throughout his long, pre-eminent and altogether varied career, it’s always been extolling things as they really are. And what he’s ultimately chosen to include amid these 507 pages is absolutely no exception.

Very early on in Who I Am, we encounter just one of the author’s countless reflections upon his childhood: ‘’When Mum paid the occasional visit to Denny and me […], she gave off an aura of London glamour and of being in a hurry, but also of being unreliable. Meanwhile Denny was running after bus drivers and airmen, and I was miserable. I had lost my beautiful young parents to a life of Spartan discipline with a pathetic woman desperately watching her youth slip away. Denny’s feelings for me seemed vengeful (…), as did Mum’s abandonment […]. At the age of seven, love and leadership both felt bankrupt’’ (‘It’s A Boy!’). While eleven chapters (and a mere eighteen years) later, Townshend is more than just a little introspective with regards his own familial responsibility: ‘’I was 25 – a young man still beset by anxieties and insecurities, who had no idea how to reconcile a growing family with the new pressures presented by The Who. As a result I found myself living in a bubble of denial: I would tell the band they came first, and I’d tell my family the same thing. I didn’t except that if I served one well I would probably fail the other’’ (‘Lifehouse And Loneliness’).

Replete with a keen eye for almost exceptional detail, these thirty-two chapters cover most, if not all aspects of Townshend’s career as a sublime, yet restless, curious, chameleonic artist. An artist, whose interviews I’ve always, always made a point of reading. Reason being, not only does he sting with all the gravitas that an exceptionally shrewd, intelligent and gifted talent entails, but he does so with a resounding, contemplative uncorruptibility, that is simply beyond compare.

Towards the back of the back, in a chapter touchingly entitled ‘Letter To My Eight-Year-Old Self,’ he writes: ‘’Julia Cameron also suggested writing letters to oneself, and during this period I wrote one to Pete Townshend, aged eight. It proved to be a crucial act of affirmation that eventually helped to heal the pain and hurt I had been harbouring all my life: it started me on the path of becoming more at peace with myself over the next decade, and of forgiving myself for whatever it was that still intermittently caused me anxiety, guilt and shame.’’

Who else might have the sheer strength of character and conviction to write such open-ended, high-octane, revelatory, self-rumination and analysis? Robbie Williams? Katie Price? Liam Gallagher? The closest Rod Stewart came – whose hugely disappointing biography I recently reviewed – was admitting: ‘‘You’re a 45-year old man and you’re flying in shags. Is this what you now amount to? Is that all you’ve got?’’

Like The Who itself, Who I Am is something of an exhilarating read.

More importantly, it sets the benchmark for which surely all future (rock’n’roll) biographies will have to undoubtedly be written.

As is written on the sleeve, this book really is: ‘’a chronicle of ambition, controversy, relentless perfectionism, rock’n’roll excess, emotional and spiritual turmoil, and ultimate redemption.’’ Resulting in it perhaps being the most poignant and powerful, honest (and in parts) harrowing biography I’ve ever read by anyone.

So in short, worth every penny; even if just to read and ultimately digest the wit and grit of either of the following: ‘’Musicians have to learn to listen before they can begin to learn to play. I think it’s the hardest part, the listening part’’ […]. ‘’I believe rock can do anything, it’s the ultimate vehicle for everything. It’s the ultimate vehicle for saying anything, for putting down anything, for building up anything, for killing and creating. It’s the absolute ultimate vehicle for self-destruction, which is the most incredible thing, because there’s nothing as effective as that, not in terms of art, anyway, or what we call art.’’

David Marx

Who Are You – The Life Of Pete Townshend

Who Are You – The Life Of Pete Townshend
By Mark Wilkerson
Omnibus Press – 19.95

”And so, once more, to bed… the cask of grief that cracks as I lie back always brings tears…”

Not the happiest of souls was/is Pete Towshend, and this utterly compelling, absorbing and veritable tomb like thesis, substantiates this fact throughout: ”The only way I could face the work was by destroying myself.”’

Both brutally and beautifully honest, Mark Wilkerson’s Who Are You: The Life of Pete Townshend
is as open and reflective as its subject matter, which is (just one of the many reasons) why it, along with the man who wrote: ” Hope I die before I get old,” deserves our utmost attention. For just as Townshend has always been an intelligent and articulate interviewee, Wilkerson has ensured that no stone has remained unturned, in what can only be described as a kaleidoscopic and chaotic lust for life – even if it hasn’t always been the happiest.

From the subject’s early West London days, right up to last year’s charity concert at London’s Roundhouse celebrating the life of Traffic’s Jim Capaldi (alongside Paul Weller, Steve Winwood and Joe Walsh), it’s all here: the inspiration behind Tommy, the making of Quadrophenia, the adulation of Meher Baba, the marriage to Karen Astley, the controversial management team of Kit Lambert and Chris Stamp, the amp attacks, the alcohol and drug abuse following the death of Keith Moon, the humiliation of being cautioned by police in 2002 for supposedly downloading child pornography, and of course, the ever tempestuous relationship between Townshend and Roger Daltry: ”Pete should never try to be a fighter. But when he was being held back by two roadies and he’s spitting and calling me a dirty little cunt and hits me with his guitar I become angry. And I was forced to lay one on him. But it was only one… One punch was all Daltry needed, as it knocked Pete out. He was taken to hospital and reportedly suffered amnesia. The rift between the two men ran unchecked for two years before the pair showed any signs of burying their differences.”

Is it any wonder that some of the aforementioned unhappiness, might have been brought to bear by songwriter’s inexorable quest for acceptance and understanding – especially from those around him? A trait, perhaps, profoundly influenced by Meher Baba, who in 1950 stated: ‘We must lose ourselves in order to find ourselves.’

Lest it be said that Townshend has adhered to the above dictum for much of his adult life; the manifestation of which, has been some of the most influential, cathartic and thankfully, violent rock’n’roll ever written and performed: As Jon Landau (now Bruce Springsteen’s manager) wrote in 1967: ”They’re sharp sarcastic, cynical, but never weighed down with their own self-importance. They are a life-force on a rock scene in which too many people are hiding behind facile, slogan songs about how all the world needs is for everyone to love everyone else […] The Who don’t pretend. Their music is them and they don’t have to defend it by coming on too arrogantly, or freaky, within the context of the music itself. They say what they have to say in a manner that is perfectly natural for them, and therein lies their magic and their charm. We would all do well to listen, and to learn.”

And we would all do well to read this book, even if only to momentarily understand the true meaning of artistry (through anguish), as opposed to appalling artistry (through stars in their thighs).

David Marx